Saturday, August 13, 2011

Memories

Don't even remember having such picture in my computer... we were so happy back then.

Going to your office on a weekend watching you work, while I watch my tv shows next to you.

When two people are in love, places don't seem to be important, being together is what matters.

Goodbye, F.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Need Help, more specifically: self help.

I can't cry anymore, even if I wanted to.

No matter how many sad songs I've listened to, or how many sad movies I have watched... I had tears in my eyes, but I just can't let it all out and cry.

Googled "how to forget someone you loved".

Just as what I've expected, there isn't a definite answer to this, but "experts" have suggested a few steps:

  1. Acceptance. Accept the fact that you are hurt and there's no quick fix in forgetting someone instantly.
  2. Physical Activities. Do something "on your own", jogging, dancing, swimming, etc.
  3. Blogging. Write a blog to record the pain; let out all the thoughts that you have in mind.
  4. Time. Last but not least, the same old "time will heal" statement.
I know I need help, I guess I'll try the 3rd method in writing a blog to record my journey of letting go of you...

After the break up, I unfriended you, I ignored your messages and avoided any sort of communications with you.

I thought this would be the best way for us to move on and I would forget all the pain we have inflicted on each other.

Little did I know, the harder I try to pretend that I'm fine, the harder it is to really let go.

Just 2 months after our very harsh break up, I was devastated to find that you have moved on so quick and is seeing someone new...

If that never happened, we will be getting married in 4 months.

Is it possible to let go of the person you claimed to love; the same person you were willing to spend the rest of your life with in such a short period?

I don't know about you, but I can't.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Confused

Parents visiting, 24/7 surveillance, invasion of privacy, Christmas, cold weather, problems with boyfriend...

what's going on?

I'm so sick of listening to the same thing everyday, you should do this, you should do that, you should be with him, you shouldn't be with him...

ugh! can I have a moment of peace... for just ONE day?